Self-Forgiveness

What does it mean to forgive ourselves? I've been pondering this one today. I told a friend of mine that my concept of forgiveness is based on the conservative Southern Baptist church I used to attend. Forgiveness was only dealt out by a large white man in a chair in the clouds. I was never taught to forgive others; I never thought I could play God. And forgiving myself? No way. That was out of my league... or so I thought.

I need to figure out what self-forgiveness really is, then I need to figure out what that process looks like and what tools are needed to make that happen.

Note: Capitalized recipes are my own.

Day 31

• 1 c. hot jasmine green tea with honey
• 1 c. (cooked) Smashed Potatoes: gold potatoes, white potatoes, sweet potatoes, nutritional yeast, garlic, sea salt, black pepper
• 1/2 of this recipe, Superfood IceScream: 1.5 trays of ice, 1/4 c. goji berry juice, 1/4 c. honey, 3 T. cacao nibs, 2 T. pecans, 2 T. hazelnuts, 2 T. goji berries, 2 T. lucuma, 1 T. mulberries, 1 tsp. maca powder, 1/4 tsp. stevia, 1/4 tsp. salt
  
• mozzarella sticks with marinara sauce
• 2 c. spring water
• 3 c. Green Smoothie: spinach, spring water, frozen peaches, frozen strawberries, dates, frozen banana
  

Today's Observations
Not feeling good today. Need more greens and less cheese. Cheese is an old habit, an old friend calling my name and stroking my hair. Think it's time to find a new comforter.