Cravings That Drive Us

What is it about cravings that drives us to ridiculous actions and words? I asked Jim what he thought a craving was and he said, "It's a learned habitual response that is usually related to me not wanting to feel something." I noticed his answer didn't have anything about food in it. I find it fascinating that I can have a craving for something and one of my immediate responses is to satisfy it, almost as if I'm a victim to its pull. And this self-victimization drives me to irrational actions.

Example: I remember recently thinking that I was craving mozzarella sticks (you know, the fried kind?). Here was the conversation in my head: Those aren't raw. Well, obviously, my body is needing something that the cheese has in it. Yeah, but that's not even raw milk cheese! Well, it's close enough and I'm just going to have to fake it and get what I can. (Picture me driving like a bat out of hell to the local pizza joint.)

Jim also told me something that has become a mantra for me during these times of disempowerment: "Why do we continue to do things that we know are not good for us? Because we are not yet good enough at loving ourselves."

Note: Capitalized recipes are my own.

Day 33

• 1 c. hot jasmine green tea with stevia
• 1/2 of this recipe, Waldorf Salad: 2.5 apples, 2 stalks celery, 1/3 c. pecans, 1 T. honey, 1/2 tsp. cinnamon
• 1/2 of this recipe, Superfood IceScream: 1.5 trays of ice, 1/4 c. cold rose tea, 1/4 c. lucuma, 1/4 c. hazelnuts, scant 1/4 c. honey, 3 T. cacao nibs, 1 T. hemp seed, 1 tsp. maca powder, 1/4 tsp. sea salt, 1/4 tsp. stevia
• 1 c. cold rose tea
• 2 Butternut Bars (spin-off of Frank Giglio's Pumpkin Bars... pumpkin seeds, sunflower seeds, butternut squash, coconut, dates, apricots, nutmeg, cinnamon, sea salt)
• 1 apple
• 1/2 of this recipe, Superfood IceScream: 1.5 trays of ice, 1/4 c. cold rose tea, 1/4 c. pecans, scant 1/4 c. honey, 3 T. lucuma, 3 T. carob powder, 1 tsp. maca powder, 1/4 tsp. sea salt, 1/4 tsp. stevia
• 1 piece of a dried apple (dehydrating apples and wanted to see if they were done)
  
• 3 c. of kale salad (kale, tomatoes, carrot, olives, hemp seeds, sunflower seeds, garlic, olive oil, balsamic vinegar, nutritional yeast, sea salt)
• 1.5 c. of miso soup (miso, onions, mushrooms, spring water, garlic, black pepper, nutritional yeast)
• Angela Stokes-inspired Yum Pot: 1.5 T. honey, 1 T. coconut oil, 1 T. cacao powder, 1 T. lucuma, 1 pinch sea salt
  

Today's Observations
After having a crushing headache all day yesterday, I woke up with it gone. It reappeared in a quieter form for a few hours and then left again. Not sure what this is about. Odd for me to even have a headache. We decided to do 7 days 100% raw to give it a shot. We've never done this as a family and I'm totally excited about this. I would like to try this in little increments and see if I can keep it going.