Gratitude

This journey feels like a roller coaster: sometimes it's crazy fun and I'm screaming from the unknownness of it all and other times it's scary as shit and I'm screaming from the unknownness of it all. If I didn't have a compassionate support system, I'd fall to the floor in a tear-filled heap. I am in gratitude.

Note: Capitalized recipes are my own.

Day 42

• 1 c. hot jasmine green tea with honey
• 1/2 of this recipe, Superfood IceScream: 1.5 trays of ice, 1/3 c. walnuts, 1/4 c. goji berry juice, 3 T. carob powder, 3 T. lucuma, 2 T. soaked goji berries, 2 T. honey, 1/2 tsp. stevia, scant 1/2 tsp. sea salt
• few pieces of 3Cs Chocolate
  
• 2 c. kale salad (kale, tomatoes, pumpkin seeds, chia seeds, olive oil, balsamic vinegar, sea salt)
• 2 c. (but one teabag) of decaf chai tea with honey
  
• 1 piece of conventional cheese pizza
• 3 c. of vegan (cooked) Wysteria's delightful Corn Chowdah (sesame mylk, corn, sweet potatoes, white potatoes, onions, garlic, nutritional yeast, salt, pepper, cayenne)
• 2 c. spring water
• 2 dates
• 1/2 of a raw, lacto-fermented pickle
  

Today's Observations
Still moving through a lot of detoxing emotions and am trying to find balance. As I up my raw percentage, a bunch of old feelings are coming to the fore - especially wanting to be taken care of, wanting to be nurtured... a lot of what didn't happen for me as a kid. So, I'm waffling and am just trying to go with it and not be judgemental.