R.I.P.

Sometimes in the middle of eating dinner, a little panic settles in my chest. I wonder, Will there be enough food for me? Recently, I've been just watching that panic come up... acknowledging it... and putting it to rest. There always seems to be enough. I think I'm finally starting to get that.

Note: Capitalized recipes are my own.

Day 122

• cup of spring water
• few pieces of Super Secret Recipe Raw Vegan Chocolate Candy; a pear; a few Savory Chia Crackers with butter; spring water
• cup of Rehmannia-Chaga Brew
• small cup of Jim's Coffee Smoothie (get ready for this ridiculous list of ingredients: espresso, spring water, ice, walnuts, frozen bananas, frozen blueberries, goji berries, dates, raw cream, honey, maca, milk thistle seed powder, mesquite powder, cacao powder, vanilla bean, sea salt)
• big bowl of green salad (red leaf lettuce, celery, broccoli sprouts, seaweed flakes, nutritional yeast, balsamic vinegar, Hope's rosemary-infused olive oil, black pepper)
• cup of hot jasmine green tea with stevia
• Veggie Frittata (sweet potatoes, red bell peppers, mushrooms, garlic, Hope's cheeken's eggs, raw cream, chives, black pepper, sea salt); barley with nutritional yeast and sea salt; buttercup squash and acorn squash with butter, black pepper, and sea salt; few more pieces of Super Secret Recipe Raw Vegan Chocolate Candy; spring water
  
  

Today's Observations
Oh. My. GOD! I feel like my world is totally turning upside-down with regard to food. I feel like with the raw vegan diet I was able to clean out a lot of toxins (mental, physical, and spiritual) and break ground for some new ways of thinking through food gathering, prep, and consumption. Lately, we've been adding raw cream and raw butter. This has been working really well on my stomach.... surprisingly. Or maybe not. Today I cooked eggs for the first time in years. It was really magical for me because they were from Hope's Cheeckens(tm). I'm not saying that we're not going to continue eating a high raw diet, but I am appreciating the importance of incorporating more local, organic whole grains and dairy products. Don't think I'm quite ready for meat, though. That's gonna take a while, if ever....