Durian-Headed

Sit in silence, let the top of your head crack open like a durian, and just be with that for a moment. What kinds of things slide in and out? Information? Fears? Old habits? Persuasive words? ... ... You?

Note: Capitalized recipes are my own.

Day 127

• cup of hot Chaga Brew
• cup of spring water
• 2 leftover (from last night's raw vegan potluck) Cinnamon Rolls
  
• little chunk of my homemade (!) Cinnamon and Date Sprouted Grain Bread with raw butter
• cup of hot decaf chai tea with honey
• lunch out at Mehkong: vegetable soup; crunchy things with that spicy sauce stuff; 1/2 portion of Vegetable Pad Thai
• few pieces of my raw vegan Coconut Goji Medicinal Mushroom Chocolates; spring water
  
• dinner was a weird layering thing of brown rice, scrambled eggs (eggs, raw cream, chives, black pepper, sea salt), homemade guacamole, homemade salsa; spring water
  
• few more pieces of my raw vegan Coconut Goji Medicinal Mushroom Chocolates with a small cup of hot Chaga Brew
  
  

Today's Observations
Today was all about the portions. I was SO PSYCHED that I stopped eating when I'd had enough. For all those that have this down pat, just go look at something else. For all those that don't, I have to admit that this was a physical challenge. I got about halfway through my Pad Thai and looked down at my plate. My friend was talking about something and I was listening to her while trying to process this huge mass of food still left on my plate. I thought, If I eat this, I will feel pain in my stomach and sides and then will feel like crap emotionally. I sighed and pushed the plate away from me. It was tough because it tasted great. I could have kept going on that alone. But I made a different choice. I feel like Mel Gibson in Braveheart: "FREEEEEEEEEDOOOOOOOM!"